Prayer began and I know we were praying His heart. Such good things were coming up in our spirits and out of our mouths. I felt urged to pray for the Church. God’s Beauty. She walks in beauty. His Bride. She is sleeping. Jesus kiss Your Bride and wake her up. Wake up Your Church! I so wanted to look at the other intercessor’s when Pastor started preaching on waking up the sleeping Church! I love it when Father moves like this.

Then somewhere in the message he “misspoke” (he thought) But I don’t think he really did. I think he was trying to say something like endorphins and oxycotin came out. I think he said he didn’t even know what oxycotin was. And Father started speaking to me.

When Pastor said oxycotin he got someone’s attention. Well he got alot of people’s attention. There was much laughter over that slip up. Tho not a slip up. Father wanted to speak to someone.
I had to go share with Deanna, who told me to tell Pastor Suzann, who then took me to the platform to share His word with the church.

Pastor is talking about waking up the church. No one is sleeping more than those in their addictions. Oxycotin is one of the most sought after drugs for addicts. In Revelations it talks about due to sorcery, witchcraft, Pharmaceuticals, some people will not be reached. They will not wake up and hear His call. They won’t hear His still small voice. They are too wasted to hear or to even know what is happening. Or they hear and can’t receive or respond because they are so messed up. He’s talking to someone today! He’s calling you out! It’s time!

I am a witness. He called me out of that dark world into His glorious light. About 26 years ago, in my addictions I kept hearing a voice. “Why don’t you go to church?” Over and over I heard it. Even early on a Sunday morning after partying till early morning hours, I woke around 8 o’clock and heard, “why don’t you go to church? You are awake and it’s early and you have time. Get up and go” I did not want to go! I did not want to keep hearing that voice…

Finally I thought maybe if I go it will stop. Well the third Sunday I went and I was sitting there listening to the preacher, when I stopped listening and started praying. Saying, “God is it really so bad? The drugs I do, the drinking I do, the marijuana? (I even lied saying) I only do it in the evenings after the kids are in bed to help me relax. Is it really so wrong?”

When in that moment I heard the pastor’s voice magnified in my ear as he said, “I was just about to close, but the Holy Spirit says there are 2 people sitting here who smoke marijuana and He wants you to know it’s a road straight to Hell and that is where you are going if you don’t stop!” He spoke on about it being a form of what Revelations was speaking on being sorcery, witchcraft and Pharmaceuticals.

As I sat there listening I realized my chin was on my chest as my mouth was hanging open and I literally shut it with my hand hoping no one had seen. I had absolutely no idea that God could or would answer a prayer like that.
Funny thing was I think at last count, something like 6 people had gone to that pastor telling him they were one of the one’s smoking marijuana!

I went home and smoked a pot pipe with my husband as I told him what had happened. But when I woke up in the morning! I knew it was time. He told me so Himself.

I used to tell people I was scared straight. I know now He woke me up! It’s time Church! Time to wake up! To step up! To get up! To let go of whatever is holding you back, holding you down. He’s waiting on you! You won’t do it alone! You can’t do it alone! He promises that! He promises to never leave you or forsake you! He loves you!

IN truth….
I have many times had pple comment on my strength in all i have been thu from way back… and i tell them in my weakness HE Is made strong!!!! I am nothing without Him being shoulder to shoulder with me every step i take thru every adversity…or maybe that strength comes in KNOWING that He is there! Beside me! Why should I fear when He is on my side!

I want to know exactly what He wants. What He wants for me – for my family – for my home – for my church. I want to know what He wants of me – of my family – of my home – of my church.

It seems to me that when I realize that where I am in God and what I have from God is not giving me the complete satisfaction I need, then I must increase my pursuit of God. It is not that God is not satisfying…

It is the realization that if the degree of understanding and revelation of God that I have is this great- THERE MUST BE MORE!!!!!!!!!! The closer I come the more He allows me to see. The more of my flesh I give the more of His Spirit I receive.

I want to be totally surrendered to Him completely. I want the things coming out of my mouth to be the things He wants people to hear. I want to reach a place that I can say, “if you have seen me you have seen Him.” I want so much less of me and more of Him.

I want to be totally crucified with Him – laying my “self” and flesh on the altar. I want to touch people as He touched them – reach them as He reached them. I want to stand in the gap for people.

I want to pray the prayers He needs prayed to be able to do the things He needs to do. I want to walk in holiness and purity and excellence before Him and before people.

I want to see the church in pursuit of Him. I want to see the church focusing on Him instead of people – pursuing Him instead of people. I want to see the church wake up and smell the fragrance of burning flesh on altars. People bowing before Him broken and contrite.

People praying and interceding – people worshipping in spirit and truth –praising Him for what He has done – worshipping Him for who He is – worshipping Him until we go so surrendered and focused on Him that He knows that in that moment for us it is “all about Him” that we love Him above all else in our lives – that we can’t breathe another breath without Him.

And then we step into the “glory” the manifested presence of Almighty God. And He speaks to us His Word through Pastors and we receive it wholeheartedly because of where we are in that moment. And lives are changed – spiritual ones and lost ones.

I totally believe in fasting… He has called me to fast…He says in His Word, “when you fast…” not if you fast… He kept calling me to fast and I had such trouble with it - I couldn’t fast the first Saturday of every month that my church fasted together.

So He called me to a 21 day fast. After the juice fast for 21 days He brought me to fasting regularly. Believe me, to fast the first Mon. – Wed. of every month is not too hard after fasting 21 days!

There is not enough taught on fasting today… too many people have taken one Scripture out of context i think and have made talk of fasting taboo.

I believe the new year should be brought in with fasting…it has so many benefits…teaching us humility, discipline, to deny the flesh, it brings us closer to Him, it cleanses our bodies… (can you imagine how good a 3 day fast detoxifies your body?)and I believe He honors it and the effort.

So why fast? To demonstrate that we are seeking God “with all our heart.” Fasting puts things in proper focus. It is a physical way of saying, “Food and the things of this life are not as important to me now as (fill in the blank) .”

There is a site on the web dealing with the the global bridegroom fast…where many people fast the first 3 weekdays of each month and the first seven weekdays in December. That totals a 40 day fast. It is a cool site.

It will soon be time to fast in the new year…I don’t look forward to the day He says to fast this laptop tho! guess what He has called me to fast for 21 days in January?

Yep, my laptop, that I know I spend waayy too much time on so it will be a sacrifice for me. Add to that something like a Daniel fast with it… so you won’t be seeing me on here much in January.

I will be reading the stack of books I have acquired in the last few months on praying and such and have left on the shelf as I have lived on this puter! If I have relevant revelations I feel may help someone I may get on the desktop of my husband’s and post them…

I know some won’t agree with me or my fasting and that is ok… I believe what I believe and I walk the walk I feel He has called me to walk…

I love my Father deeply. I know He walks with me every feeble step I take and honors my efforts of trying to live my life for Him.

I used to spend every service in the sound booth in back of the church. And I would notice that many people came in about 45 minutes late. And this was a pattern. I began to realize that there were people who did not come to worship but only for the sermon.

As a worshipper that just really got to me.
The sermon is a vital part of service, but the worship is just as vital if not more so. The sermon is Father’s Word, Father’s gift to us. It is what we should take from the service and apply thru the week in our daily lives. It is to feed us and help us grow spiritually.

The worship is our gift to Father. It is what we give to Him each week. He is worthy to be worshipped. He is worthy to be praised. It is a time to praise Him for what He has done for us and to worship Him for Who He is. It is His time of the service.

I am sorry I just realized there are some branches of the Church that do not have worship services so I guess I am speaking to those who do. Or if you do not then you can make a time of worship at home. And maybe you do and that’s great!

There are people that seem not to realize this. That there are two parts of most services…our part and His part. Both parts are equally important.
I pray you come to the realization of the importance of worship.

I pray if you have never experienced a time of intimate worship that you do so now. You cannot know what you are missing if you have not had the experience.

As with most any aspect it should be developed. The more you take the time to do something the easier it becomes to do. The same goes for feeding on His Word. I struggle there and do not spend enough time reading it.

I know that when I start a few minutes a day I will reach a point that I cannot go a day without it. I read something recently about there being two lions in each of us. One spirit and one flesh. When asked which was the strongest the reply was the one that gets fed the most.

Romans 8:5 (The Message)
5-8Those who think they can do it on their own end up obsessed with measuring their own moral muscle but never get around to exercising it in real life. Those who trust God’s action in them find that God’s Spirit is in them-living and breathing God! Obsession with self in these matters is a dead end; attention to God leads us out into the open, into a spacious, free life. Focusing on the self is the opposite of focusing on God. Anyone completely absorbed in self ignores God, ends up thinking more about self than God. That person ignores who God is and what he is doing. And God isn’t pleased at being ignored.

Romans 8:5 (New Living Translation)
5 Those who are dominated by the sinful nature think about sinful things, but those who are controlled by the Holy Spirit think about things that please the Spirit.

Have you fed your spirit today? Have you worshipped your Father today?

Blessing to you all

The same week she was given a 3-6 month prognosis she found out her daughter-n-law was pregnant. Our Pastor told her to not focus on what the doctors said but to get a picture of herself holding that grand baby in 9 months in her mind and hang on to it.

Father then gave her a vision later that week and she saw herself holding a newborn baby girl. She already had a grandson so she was very excited. And then she was so confused the rest of her life because it was a boy. So many times she said she didn’t understand why she saw a girl.

She went to Heaven on Aug, 30, 2006. Sometime after that I was thinking about it and I believe Father reminded me that she had an abortion when she was 14 and raped. I believe Father gave her a vision of holding her own daughter soon…

When I posted this once someone commented…”My heart is sad, but rejoicing that as she enters the gates that final healing touch, for that specific pain in her life, may very well be the touch of her own child.”

WOW….. imagine that….

Then again…. some think that she went to Heaven and held her granddaughter Madeline who arrived 13 months after she passed away…

And I ask what and he said, “I can’t be a good Christian, I can’t stop thinking these bad thoughts!” I ask him what thoughts and he said, “I saw that bike over there and I thought I ought to just go take it.”

A friend was walking by and I told her what he had just said and she told him a different way he needed to think about it all. We have an enemy who puts these thoughts in our heads but we do not have to act on them.

Like a bird can fly over our head but we don’t have to let it make a nest in our hair! So what I found out was that as I worship or pray the enemy puts thoughts in my head to distract me and stop me from getting into Father’s presence.

He might be able to put them there but I do not have to dwell on them. I realized that if I take those thoughts captive and stop them and refocus on my worship or prayer He blesses that and takes me deeper. And it happens over and over again. The battlefield is our mind!

2 Corinthians 10:5  Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ.

Blessings To You

Then we have to quit serving them! Quit allowing them to consume our thought life. And don’t wait until circumstances change to do it. Instead, realize that circumstances won’t ever change until we switch from wrong to right thinking.

I know that’s not easy to do, especially in the midst of heavy darkness and trial. But we can do it if we do these three things:

First, remember you aren’t alone. You have the Word (God’s thoughts). You have the Holy Spirit to strengthen you and you have the mind of Christ.

Second, get around people who are full of faith. Instead of rehearsing your problem, let them do the talking. Make yourself listen. Join in with their faith and resist darkness.

Third, praise God. Do whatever it takes to make yourself praise. When you begin to praise, God’s presence will turn back those worried thoughts and make them fall!

Our problems are not the biggest thing in our life. Jesus is. Serve Him with our thoughts and He will set us free!

Scripture Study: Isaiah 55
You can’t win a victory as long as the problem is the biggest thing in your life!

Your attitude is your thought life turned inside out..

This 21 day beginning of the new year fast for me ended yesterday…
All in all it was a really good experience… It brought me so much closer to where I need to be with my Father.

Fasting is like peeling an onion…lots of layers to go through and discard…

It opened my eyes to some things I needed to see and some things I needed to change in my life. A couple of t.v. shows I needed to give up and “sow” to Him…

I saw a mindset in myself that I need to deal with and change… I am working on a writing about it and I hope to post it later… but the gist of it is I grew up in bad trailer parks (no offense to anyone living in mobile homes) and I now have a “trailer park” mentality.

It’s like the spirit that was on Moses when he questioned God asking, “who am I for You to send”. I still have this childhood mindset of being “less” and who am I to speak to educated higher class or “better” Christians than I.

And something else is if I can’t step out because of “what will people think of me” is just as much about pride as stepping out with chest’s puffed out saying “look what I know and what God has shown me.”

And I know that has been a stronghold of the enemy used to keep me quiet… lies to distract … we all have something that he uses to keep us from stepping out into our destiny’s. We have all heard that still small voice and have heard confirmations and we still hesitate to do what He needs us to do.

We are too busy, we have to much to do already, we aren’t articulate enough, haven’t prayed or studied enough, can’t fit it into our schedules, can’t speak out in front of people, etc.

He showed me that I need to step out in God-confidence not self-confidence. It is about Him! Not about me. We have to see that it is time for each part of the Body of Christ to stand up and take their places! The Head has to have the feet to move and the hands to reach out and the mouths to speak.

He truly is waiting on us!

Blessing to you all